I'm 20. Am I supposed to feel different now? Should I be wiser or smarter or less of a mess?
No, not necessarily. I think being in your 20s is about making mistakes and taking risks that are scary but also so, so exciting. I think being in your 20s is about living life to the absolute fullest while we're young. I want to live the next years bravely, unafraid to fail and fall and try and try again. I want these next years to be formative and explorative. I want to jump when opportunities come and answer the doors of life unafraid and with my neck out, because if you aren't uncomfortable or sort of afraid, I don't think you're challenging yourself enough. Starting this blog was sort of scary. This is me putting myself out there for literally the world to see. And while it's scary, and I worry about grammatical or spelling errors that I'm bound to make, it's truly inspiring to see that what I write and put out there can actually impact lives. It's such a wonderful sense of fulfillment to know that people are listening. I'm not just typing and posting for myself, but now there are people out there listening!
Guys, now that I'm 20, I think it's time for me to begin taking all the risks I've been too scared to take. I think it's time to learn to do a handstand since I'm terrified of being upside down. I think it's time to dye my hair a crazy color. I think it's time to get involved on campus and pour myself into something I love. I think it's time to try singing again even though I have the world's worst stage fright. Maybe it's even time to finally sing the National Anthem even though I'm cringing and breathing harder as I type this...oh god, even my fingers are resisting typing this. What I'm trying to say is that I didn't leave home and travel thousands of miles to come to college and not make an impact. I want to be that light that I told myself two years ago I would be. So here I am world. *looks to sky and opens arms dramatically* Let's see what you got.